Catching Up... Part II

What else has been happing... I bought a motorcycle. a 2007 bright freaking yellow Triumph Daytona. A stupid fast sport bike that is a blast to ride. Its nice to be back on a bike again after so many years away. A great aspect of riding is that when I get on the bike, it forces me to put all mundane thoughts away and concentrate on the ride. In a car you have time to mull all the bullshit that piles up in a day. On a bike I find I just can't do this. Its amazing just how fast "bad things" begin to develop when you are just the slighest bit distracted. So I force my self to stop the useless thinking and concentrate on the bike. Its almost a zen state in a way during even a short ride. Just the bike.. me.. and the world about. All the other buzzing thoughts are forced in a lil box to be opened later.. with a nice cold 'tini in hand.

Catching Up.. Part 1

Wow... been way to long since I wrote anything. Life has been busy to say the least. I'm not working from home much any more. The general slow down in business has forced me to take more "traditional" gigs. Working as a sub contractor for larger groups and spending more time working at client sites as part of a team. I guess I'm being pulled slowly back into the corporate world with all the ugliness that entails.

All that ends up meaning that I'm spending less time in SL at different hours that I used to. And the time I spend there I'm usually only half there mentally as I'm doing other work related things. I'm not getting time to spend with my Nina. Not getting to share her day to day joy's and triumphs like I used to. Not being able to fill my part... my role... and that makes me feel sad. I've become yet another absent SL Dominant that causes so pain to others. I hate it when I see it happen to others and it makes me angry at myself that it seems to be happening to me.

I do keep other lines of communication open, gchat, email.. etc. So my Nina knows i'm thinking of her but its not the same. Others have asked for a place with me.. and I have extended my protection (a vamp thing) to one sweet kitten but I'm hesitant to offer more. To take another step down a road I'll be pulled from due to the demands of RL.

Losing contact with My Minxy is not helping the way I feel either. I feel responsible for her disappence back into RL. I feel responsible for her abandoning her SL friends. I know I shouldn't but... *shrugs*

more to come.